It's strange to say, (since college is suppose to be fun! T^T) but I can't help but feel like, in a way college has stripped me of my spirit. It's been an entire year of constantly running & pushing my limits. And I guess since my focus became soo side-tracked from God, I got tired & weary of each and every single friggin day FAST. Throughout freshman year, I focused on studying, getting good grades, doing well on projects (and in the process, pulling waaayy too many all nighters to be humanly healthy!). But I found that in the midst of it all- in trying to do great on my own- I fell into very destructive behaviors. Now that I look back on my first year, yes it was fun, exploring the city, making new friends, eating good food, and I did learn a lot, but I do wish despite my busy schedule, that I made more time for God & for the people I love (yes, my lovely EMCers:)<3). Because without God & loved ones, towards the end of the year I felt so confused and burnt out. I questioned- what the hell is all this for? Is this what I really want? Is this worth it? Can I really make a difference with what I'm doing? Man, it sucks when you start to second guess yourself. But now I want to set my sights on God, and trust that He will lead me on the right path & give me strength to RUN for the right reasons.
1 Corinthians 9:24-25
...In a race all the runners take part in it, but only one of them wins the prize. Run then, in such a way as to win the price. Every athlete in training submits to strict discipline; he does so in order to be crowned with a wreath that will not last ; but we do it for one that will last forever.
Run- Addison Road
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DbT8mDgYYSw
Stop lights
break down
we cry last try
Worlds collide
time to decide
Where you wanna go in this
great big world
Stuck here
too long
in this sad song
Lost on a street
everyone has vanished
so you're all alone
But you don't know where to go
yea you're all alone
and you wanna go home
Run
just as fast as you can
Run
'til you reach the end
where the fallen
finally land
The worlds starts, over again
run
Next page, new day,
finding my way,
stumble upon
the strength to move on
'Cause I am not alone,
in this great big world
And you are not alone
in this great big world
So Run
just as fast as you can
Run
'til you reach the end
where the fallen
finally land
The worlds starts, over again
Run now,
Don't you look back
Run towards
the light straight ahead
Where the lost souls
make a beautiful sound
a new life is finally found
Run
You're free,
free falling
A new beginning
This is our time
Run
just as fast as you can
Run
'til you reach the end
where the fallen
finally land
The world starts over again
Run now,
Don't you look back
Run towards
the light straight ahead
where the lost souls
make a beautiful sound
And new life
is finally found
Run
